What’s Wrong With Me?

I couldn’t shake the feeling.  I was being tormented by something that appeared to be from my childhood.  Something was going on and I couldn’t understand it.  Why was I feeling so miserable and .. here it is .. the dreaded .. just not good enough?  What was wrong with me?

Watch Out For The Ego

I’ve learned to become aware of the feelings in my body that are caused by negative thoughts.  Now, while I’m doing pretty good at talking myself out of negative thinking these days, my ego sneakily takes any opportunity to create vulnerability.

So why couldn’t I shake it this time, and what was causing it?  I had no idea.  Until …

A friend said to me .. it was your birthday last week, is that it?

Instantly relief flooded my being.  Yes, that was it.  All those teeny tiny thoughts of my ego, of not achieving so many of my dreams had accumulated in the previous week and were unconsciously haunting me.

So, while I was able to instantly release the torment that has taken years of seeking to understand and let go, my thoughts were with a friend in Melbourne who is almost constantly in a state of torment, struggle and misery at every turn.

Help Me Find Peace

He knows he wants peace but his thoughts take him to a worse case scenario more often than not.

Last week we were on the phone a couple of times a day as he was struggling with his existence. During one of the calls he begged me to answer his question “Is there just something wrong with me Jules, when is this going to stop?”

Love What Is

My heart ached for my friend so far away.  I replied “When you turn your attention to what is working and to what you want, rather than holding onto the view of how everything is going wrong or how you think your life should be, then the suffering will stop”.

When you are in disagreement with how life is you are in disagreement with the Universe.  This only causes suffering and you’re probably going to feel very alone and you too, will question “What’s wrong with me?”

If you’ve had enough of suffering due to where your thoughts take you, take a look at this video by Byron Katie, creator of the healing method “The Work”.

You can see more of Katie’s (yes, she’s called by her last name) TheWork at her website, it’s free.  http://www.thework.com

Share your thoughts.

Do you believe in yourself Wild Woman?  So much so that when you put yourself ‘out there’ and make a decision to do something a little risky, there is no thought whatsoever about regret, or turning back, or about any flak that you might get as a result of doing so?

Well good for you if that’s the case.  You obviously know the greatness within and have a wonderful belief in yourself and your ability.  I applaude you!

Do you …

Work like you don’t need the money.
Love like you’ve never been hurt.
Dance like nobody is watching.
Sing like nobody is listening.
Live like there’s no tomorrow.
Fear like a stone.

 Author Unknown

To live with that kind of attitude could only create a total inner freedom that opens up your heart and lets your spirit soar into the satisfaction that you have used your life to be a true expression of Divinity.

Naysayers Can Rob Your Dream

Unfortunately most people don’t have that kind of belief in themselves.  Rather, they are easily unsettled by naysayers.

I found just the other day that I can still be knocked off balance by naysayers.  In a recent email that I sent to the Wild Woman, someone felt uncomfortable and reacted in an aggressive way.  

Now you might be thinking ‘big deal, one person’s opinion, what are you worrying about?’  And you would be right.  It’s not a big deal.  And it will most likely happen again and again if I choose to put myself out there.  And that is a risk I will have to take if I want to live my life on purpose, fulfilling my intention of making a little bit of sense to this life for other women who have struggled and now want to live and ‘love like they’ve never been hurt and dance like no-one’s watching.

But you know, while it’s not a big deal, it did unsettle me for a while.  And on the same day someone suggested I was ‘dreaming’ if I thought I could make a difference, especially on the Internet where it’s all so shady.

Ouch! 

Now it was really feeling kinda personal.

Sure it felt personal.  But was it?

No!

In fact, the one’s who were reacting negatively were projecting from their own issues, fears and insecurities.

But I did take it personally, even if for just a short while.  You see, I also reacted in the old way of letting fear dictate my life. 

I even found myself thinking “What if I’m just not meant to do this ‘work’ after all”?

Hell no!  That’s the old ego slipping in the back door at any chance it gets. 

The ego’s job is to keep me safe and out of the way of any kind of threat or perceived threat.  And by reacting to a threat of my worth by thinking ‘I’m not good enough’ would stop me from getting ‘out there’ again.

And honestly, I’m over it.  I’m so over letting my fear and ego rule my life and stopping me from having fun and feeling fulfilled that I’m just going to do it again and thumb my nose at my fear and tell it to shove off.  I’m coming through.

And the amazing thing about doing that is, it’s actually getting a little easier each time I put myself on the line, so to speak.

So, ultimately, what is stopping you from doing what you want to do is fear.  And I find that those who are the most sensitive are the most vulnerable to having their dreams destroyed by fear.

Sensitivity

I have met quite a few sensitive people in my life.  And in most cases, the most sensitive of all was the one looking back at me in the mirror.

I was often scolded as a child for being too sensitive and that accusation always floored me.  Why didn’t anyone understand that my feelings were hurt?  And to rub salt into the wound, no one seemed to care.  They thought I was a pathetic whiner.

Later in life when I finally discovered a different way of living, by remembering that I am a spiritual being having a human experience I learned that being sensitive was a wonderful quality to have.

Little did I realize that this is what can easily happen once we open the door to spirituality.  We learn things from books and other people, but because we haven’t had the opportunity to live what we are taught it is sometimes only half way to truth.

That’s how it was for my ‘enlightenment’ about sensitivity. 

Sure, being sensitive to other people’s needs and feelings is admirable.  But hold on a moment. That’s empathy.  And many sensitive people that I’ve met are empaths as well.  I too have that quality which I never want to change about myself – being able to put myself in another’s shoes allows me to have an understanding and to easily and comfortably offer support and encouragement.  But you need to understand there is a difference between sensitivity and empathy.

Sensitivity Is Not Empathy.

I just looked up sensitive in the dictionary.  Here’s a little of what I found “ Easily irritated, delicate. Affected by external conditions or stimuli.  Easily offended.”

Ok, well that’s nothing like being an empath at all.  Being sensitive is being affected and reacting irritably by conditions outside of yourself.  Living ‘at cause’ by things, situations and people leaves you wide open to emotional assault.  Being sensitive, your life is a result of what others are doing or saying, to, or about you.  Now, what others do or say about you is way out of your control.  This is what causes so many people to live lives of ‘quiet desperation’ as they think their life is completely out of their control and that they are at the mercy of others at nearly every bend and turn in life.  They don’t know or forget the power that is within. 

You cannot live authentically, or be true to yourself while you are worrying about every little thing that happens outside of you.  You can only control what is going on inside of you.

Sometimes you don’t have all the tools or knowledge that you need to take a step out, but you find the tools, or you make them. 

And you know what feels really crappy, and threatening? When people don’t support your ideas and even curse you when something feels a bit uncomfortable inside of them. 

But I promise you, they will be in the ‘out there’.  But decide that their opinion is different and that yours is not understood, that’s all.  

And, you know, someone else’s opinion is only that – their opinion  And further more, it’s theirs and you don’t need another one.  Your opinion is the one that matters most of all.  Your opinion is the one that’s going to consciously create your future – and that, and only that, is the opinion you want to give your attention to.

Sure it’s uncomfortable to do what you want to do sometimes.  But if you can only step through that barrier, the next time it will be easier, and even easier the time after that.  And soon you will be wondering what you were so afraid of.

Hold the vision, what is it that you are working toward?  What is it that you really want in your life?  What is the feeling that you want to feel everyday? Make the choice that what you want to experience is worth every bit of effort that you have to put into it, then step up to bat.  There’s no other way to create your dream.

It’s time. 

You want the good life?  Then step up and take a swing girl!

What do you want?

Peace?

A great realationship?

A better job?

Ok.  So what’s the one thing that you can do today that will take you closer to the life you dream?  One single small thing that once it’s done you will be one step closer to doing what you really want to do. It’s probably the thing that will make you the most uncomfortable.  That’s why you haven’t done it, till now.

Just make a start. 

You are the only one that knows the next step to doing what you need to do to have the experience that you see and feel in your vision. 

See it

Hear it

Touch it

Taste it

Smell it.

Know what it looks and feels and tastes and smells like.  Practice those senses so you know what it looks like and feels like etc etc .. when you have it within your awareness, when it has come to pass. 

What’s it like there?

Is that what you want more of?

Then hold onto that feeling.

Your feeling, or vibraiton is what begins the manifestation process, bringing your dreams and visions to you.

Practice what it will be like, but feel it here and now, so that when it turns up you won’t freak out that it’s too good, and therefore too uncomfortable, and too difficult to believe that you’re worth it and deserve it.

Practice it.

Practice the feeling.

As often as you can.

Everytime you remember to hold the feeling, you are making a quantum jump into something better – you are making one more leap toward the realization of your vision.

Hold the vision Wild Woman.

Believe in Yourself.

And hold the dream.

So, have you decided to take the leap?  Make the commitment to moving toward your dream by sharing your vision here with the community of Wild Woman.  Once you’ve made that commitment openly, and read other Wild Women’s vision, it will inspire you to continue on your journey of living happy, wild and freeeeee!

With love and gratitude,

Jules

www.WildWomanWisdom.com

The number one reason that you’re not living your dream life Wild Woman, is because you don’t even know what that is.  I bet you don’t even know what that looks like.

You might think you do, so go ahead, show yourself a picture in your mind right now of what your ‘dream’… your vision for a better life, looks like.   

Do you know?

Can you see it?

Did you know that most of your time is spent thinking, mulling over what happened, or what could happen sometime in the future?

Do you know that you are creating your life again exactly as it is right now? 

But, you know, the sad thing is, all those thoughts running round and round is not really thinking. What they are, is simply a tape running rampant in your thoughts that say what you did wasn’t good enough. Who you are isn’t good enough.

“What I should have said was … Maybe I shouldn’t do what I really want, maybe I should play it safe, just in case.  Just in case what I don’t know, but this is unfamiliar territory, so I might just pass on this opportunity.”  And then “I think it should all happen this way … blah blah blah”

If you’re thinking the same thoughts over and over, you will continue to re-create your life exactly as it is right now.

Do you understand what your thoughts are doing to your life?

YOUR THOUGHTS CREATE YOUR LIFE.

So, what are your current thoughts doing for you? Is that what you want more of?  Then good for you.  Well done.  You’re probably wasting your time here if that is so …

Otherwise .. read on.

To achieve your dreams and your vision for you life you need to maintain a clear focus on that vision. You need to know what your dreams are so the Universe can make it happen for you.  If you haven’t given any thought to what you want for your life, I highly recommend you begin it now.

Imagine jumping into a taxi and saying .. “Take me somewhere please”.  Well, the driver could take you round and round the same place, again and again and again. 

Pretty pointless right?  Well, that is how you live your life without a vision.  If you don’t allow inspiration to guide your life, you will be taken ‘somewhere’ by default.  This will cause you to feel like you’re living your life without purpose, wandering aimlessly.

And this is what causes you so much grief Wild Woman.  You feel lost in the wilderness.  And it causes such a burden in your life because you know you came here for a reason.  You know you have purpose, and ‘a’ purpose. 

And whatever that purpose is, will be uniquely yours.  No one other soul on this earth can fullfil your purpose your way.

Imagine the same scenario with the taxi, but this time saying “Take me to my dreams”. 

Now this is much better.  The Universe has something to work with here.

So, you need to help the Universe out.  The Universe is instructed by your feelings. So whatever you’re feeling, the vision and anticipation that you are on purpose, and have taken the first step to reaching your destination, allows the Universe to pop it right there in your experience. 

How cool is that?

And all you need to do Wild Woman, to make your dream into your reality … is ..  create a vision.  And then feel it.  Feel what it would be like to already have your dream.

What’s that like?

It’s easier than you think. 

“What Your Mind Can Conceive, You Can Achieve” Napolean Hill

What you focus your attention on will cause a vibration within you. But it doesn’t stop there.  Your vibration is known throughout the entire Universe.  The intelligence of the Universe recognizes your vibration and sends more circumstances to you to maintain that vibration. 

You become what you think.  If you think the same thoughts, you get to have that experience over and over again. 

So it makes sense to change your thoughts right?.  Now this is where it gets tricky.  The way that you have been thinking for probably your entire life is going to keep falling into your line of thoughts …  unless you do something to disrupt that line of thought.

What would you say, if I told you that I’ve got the heads up on a cool tool that’s being released this coming Monday, that allows you to keep your vision, your dream right before your eyes?  And the best part is, it’s absolutely free.

So keep your eyes on your inbox on Monday 27^th (that’s Tuesday if you’re an Aussie like me). And you’ll find an exciting way to start making your dreams come true.  And, of course, the best part .. it’s freeee …

With Love and Gratitude.

Jules

I’ve been fluffing around the edge of the internet for over four years now.  By fluffing around I mean I’ve been studying all the ways of the internet including how to build a community and business online, but not actually creating any huge momentum.

Well I’m pleased to say I now know more than enough to run a successful business and to build the community that was my dream when I first started. 

So if I have all this knowledge why haven’t I been giving it the attention it deserves and needs … you may well ask?

It comes down to one single answer .. one word .. one emotion.  It’s the feeling that kills many dreams and causes people to live lives of quiet desperation.  So what is that emotion?

Fear!

There are many reasons why people feel fear.  I spent years trying to work out ‘what was wrong with me’. 

Now, I’ve always had a passion to be an entrepreneur.  I even started several businesses that had great potential, but fear caused me to stop trading almost before I even began.

The common denominator in doing the things that I was afraid of was anything that got me attention.  That, to me, meant a paralyzing, life-threatening fear.

The first obvious clue to this was when I did a Business Management Course some years ago.  I clearly remember the day my teacher told the class it was time to start putting ourselves ‘out there’.  The fear/subconscious mind kicked in and the response was automatic.  Immediately I felt a knot in my stomach and the idea that ‘maybe I just wasn’t meant to be in business after all’ consumed me. 

I’m happy to say that I did eventually find out why I was afraid of getting attention. I found the answer after going through a past life regression.  Finally I had the answer which I will share with you another time. 

The only problem was, how do I now stop the fear from preventing me doing the things I wanted to do?  Fear is a very powerful influence … if you let it be.

Many times I sit down at my computer to share tools, resources or insights with you, but there always seems to be something else more urgent to do right at that moment.  Or is there?  Is this my fear taking over?  You bet it is.

So today, I decided that I’m just going to do it!  I feel fear, but I’m going to write to you and everyone that asked to receive the Wild Woman Newsletter.

But I assure you I must remain aware that I don’t allow my kids or anyone else to seduce me into straying off my path of intention.

You know, there’s really no logical explanation why I should feel afraid.  I’m sure that if you don’t like what I’m writing that you won’t email me and abuse me : )  It makes no sense.

And this fear is from something that happened in another time, another place, that still haunts me and has kept me from having fun my whole life.

It is simply fear.  For me it is the fear that I will cause attention to be drawn to myself.  

Well, I’ve had enough of holding myself back.  I say … no more! 

I do declare that I am ready to look fear in the face and find the
courage to do what I want to do anyway.

And that is to simply share my knowledge, tools, resources and
insights with you.

Today, I begin my life anew.

Anyway, it’s not really about me.  The reason for my message is
about you Wild Woman.  What is it that causes fear in you?

What is there that you want to do more than anything, but you just don’t do it?

What are your dreams and vision for your life?

Are you afraid of ending a bad relationship so that you won’t be
alone? 

Are you still in that job that doesn’t allow you to express yourself
because you are afraid you’re not good enough to do better?

Come on!

I challenge you to face that fear and live an awesome life anyway.

Would you like to face your fears and share with other Wild Women what your fear has been … until today .. and what you’re prepared to do about it?

Then simply scroll down to the bottom and add your comments.

You never know, you just might make a difference to someone else’s world.

Can’t wait to hear from you.

With love and gratitude,

Jules

PS To leave a comment click on the ‘comment’ line at the top of the post. 

Welcome Wild Woman.  I’m so glad you found your way here.  I hope that you’re ready to nurture, love and understand yourself in an atmosphere of respect, freedom, safety, confidentiality and trust.  The time spent here is for you, because everything begins with you, and you’re so worth it. 

The purpose of the Wild Woman Wisdom Blog is to share information and resources that lays the groundwork for living the life that you may have, until now only imagined, and felt deep within your heart.     

Who Are You Wild Woman?

Wild Woman, do you know what you are truly longing for?  Do you dare to voice your deepest truth?  Do you know what your truth even feels like?

Discovering who you are and loving all of who you see (the good and the not so good) allows you to live authentically, to be free, to be fulfilled and to be joyful.  In doing so, you can live powerfully from that place of authenticity, no matter what.  

“Never, never, never give up.” Winston Churchill.

Are You Ready For A Journey?

Together, the Wild Women are going on a journey to discover passion and purpose – the essential ingredients for an authentic and soul-filled life.

Together we will address insight, balance, resiliency, the authentic self, emotions, dreams, inner vision, forgiveness, love, and abundance as well as your programming in order to live fully in the present, not the past.  Thankfulness for life’s challenges, taking ownership of your life, loving at the level of soul, and prosperity consciousness are explored.

You are encouraged to grow by living consciously in the present, and be empowered by knowing your experience today is what matters, not what happened yesterday or a year ago.

Is It Really Possible To Be Happy? 

Is it realistic to believe that you can truly be happy, joyful, and at peace, creating a life you love?

ABSOLUTELY!If You Know How Wild Woman!

 To begin the journey, you will need: 

• A personal commitment to inner work
• A desire to walk your talk
• A curiosity and willingness to grow. 

And that’s it!

Manifesto Of The Wild Woman

(Say it out loud with your hands open wide

in the receiving position as you declare …)

I open my heart

to connect with inspiration.

I speak Divine truth and set my soul free. 

I allow the magnetic

inner beauty and grace of who I am

to shine through.

I create sacred space and

 affirm and celebrate life.

 I welcome self-respect and love.

I am powerful.

I am from, and remain connected to …

 the Source Of All.

I apply my wisdom.

 I dance in the Field of Grace.

 I AM whole.

 I AM perfect. 

I AM complete.

A New Earth

You may have heard a lot of discussion about ‘A New Earth’, ‘The Shift’ or an ‘Evolution in Consciousness’ around the inner globe lately.  These times have been forecast and predicted for thousands of years.  I think it was referred to somewhere in the Bible as “the time of screaming and gnashing of teeth”.

We are at the end of several cycles, one being a 5125 year cycle.  We are also at the completion of a 26,000 year cycle.  The sun has journeyed through an ‘age’ in each of the signs of the horoscope.  We are currently completing the Age of Aries, the energy of masculinity and war … Mars and the Ram have been at the helm …. with force! (Oh my gosh, I’m Aries, that’s why I’ve struggled with the mind.  I’ve had to release the butting of heads … !!)

Anyway … we are leaving the age of Aries, and the journey is almost done.  But wait, that means that there will be a new beginning.  I’m sure you’ve been hearing about this since the sixties with the introduction of free love … the Age of Aquarius.

We are at the gateway of Aquarius.  But first we must let go of the influence of Aries.

We are living in those times now.

This is so humanity - all of Mother Earth – can purge all conflict and emerge in peace and harmony with the essence of our being.  We are stepping up the evolution of the consciousness of the planet.  We are stepping into the light of One-ness.

The age of dominance of the yang/masculine energy is over.  Goddess is taking her rightful place beside God. Not beneath or behind him – beside Him  … gratefully … joyfully.

Yin and Yang are complete! 

This unprecedented time on earth is the awakening of humanity. The gentleness of peace, the insight of intuition, and the gift of grace – the Mother – is coming out from hiding. She’s ready to forgive … and to open her arms wide.  She is showing the way to heal and open to the fullness of giving, of One-ness … through love …  without condition. 

Ok. The time has come for Gaia … the feminine, peaceful, earth-honouring, intuitive, indigenous cultures to come out of hiding and cast her gifts of tuning into nature, recognition of cycles and symbolism, intuition, compassionate connection, but most of all – forgiveness – back onto the table.  Her presence is honoured and revered.

So what do you think Wild Woman?  Wanna stick around and be a part of the evolution of humanity?

Anyway, I’ve rambled on enough here, way more than I expected.  There’s A New Earth rising and I’m on it.  I’m so excited to witness it and be a part of it.

What are your thoughts?  What’s in your heart?  Leave your love and blessings or concerns and wishes in the comments box below.  Your presence and input are valued.

Can’t wait to hear from ya,

With love and gratitude,

Jules